When I was a kid, I thought
crutches were incredibly cool. I
was not the only one. Anyone who
had a pair and happened to be sitting was besieged with requests to try
them. We would take turns swinging
and hopping around on them. Then I
ripped the ligaments in my right ankle and got my own pair. Not so fun or cool then, navigating
stairs, having to wear both straps of my backpack (which was Not Done at my
school), chafing under my armpits.
At home, I did a lot of hopping without them, choosing to crawl up and
down the stairs.
Crutches are temporary
necessities. We do not want to use
them all the time. I am, of
course, talking now about our metaphorical crutches, the caffeine, the cigarettes,
the secret brownies, the second drink, the fourth hour of television. It is not easy to give them up, even if
we are better. When my cast came
off, I had an atrophied calf and an ankle I was afraid to put weight on. The crutches kept me from the pain of
walking, but to truly heal, I had to stop using them and go through the
discomfort of rebuilding muscle and balance.
I recently gave up caffeine,
again. I always joke about Coke
and Diet Coke (we call them crack and diet crack at my house) being easier to
get than sleep. I’ve spent the
last week realizing how sleep-deprived I really have been and giving my body
the chance to heal. Now that the
caffeine headaches are gone and I’ve taken several million naps, I feel much
better.
Let’s always be on the lookout
for our crutches. Let’s ask if we
really need them or if we are choosing not to grow or heal by using them.